Life sucks. I’m hella frustrated. My wallet hurts and I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired. But I’m not miserable. It doesn’t seem like it on paper but I’m feeling the best I’ve felt in awhile even though all the cards are stacked against me. Depression is such an odd thing and I seriously need to do some more work to figure this ish out. So let’s try to dig deeper.
Why Do You Feel so Unsatisfied?
I left a nice full-time paying job with an awesome team at a world-renowned company to “pursue my life passion”. But over a year later and I don’t have any financial gain more of a decline I’m freaking out at myself that I haven’t made these big, bold moves to my life and changing the world. I’m frustrated with myself. I’m disappointed and I don’t know what the heck I’m supposed to do next.
I had dreams of making my parents’ lives easier, spoiling my girlfriend, taking trips around the world and making the world a better place but the truth is I feel like a burden, a dark cloud around my friend and nothing more than a weight that drags people down. I’m sure there probably won’t be people that would give that statement any light of day. Some people might counteract it, but I also probably won’t have the capacity to believe anything they say.
Depression is an interesting thing. I can easily take an outside perspective and know what to do but in my shoes, from my eyes, even the slightest bit of action seems impossible. Hence that’s why I’m writing this. It’s the only place that I can feel the slightest bit of progression even though logically this isn’t doing much.
So what can we do about it?
So in my head, the most logical step was to just get things done. That’s why I made the Limitless Planner, it was made to set goals, stick with them and get them done. Basically, the purpose was to get out of your own head and do the things you actually wanted to do. The issue is that I feel like a failure. I feel like I let everyone that bought a planner down. I think its horrible. I hate that it’s not “perfect”. I hate that I never kept up with everyone that bought one. I feel like a waste man.
I hate that I’m not ready to launch the academic version of the planner AGAIN. and I hate that I’m not satisfied with the prototype I have now. I want to help people but I hate that I’m still broke. I hate that I need money and I wish I could just provide everything for free but then I have an inner conflict that I need to make money somewhere. I just don’t know what to do about limitless anymore
What the hell should I do?
- Get Rid of Depression…. How tho? –> Write summaries and track progress with:
- Grow my YouTube Channel… But what do I even like to do?
- Tech Reviews
- Organization Tips
- I guess everything that I need to do to get my life in order
- Make Money Somehow. So something beneficial for the people and not too expensive?
- Teach people how to make a website
- Show people my organization/life planner process
- Launch Limitless Quarterly? Free?
- Find a place to bind books for cheap
- Do it manually?
- Do people even want this?
- Financial literacy
I guess this is my other issue I want to do everything and then I get hella overwhelmed. So what the hell do i need to do next? How can I avoid getting overwhelmed? I need to just pick one thing and work on that a little bit everyday. What am I good at? nothing lol….
What do I know how to do. I know how to build a website so let’s teach people how to do it…